Just a Little Discouraged!

Hello All! Today's post is not about any particular adoption details, but it is just something I have been struggling with lately. I don't know exactly what caused it to come about, but I have just felt so discouraged, which is terrible since we have only began our journey.  Lately, I feel so discouraged that I just want to throw up my hands and just say, "I Quit!!" But, then I am reminded that we have been called to something much higher than that.

I work as an independent consultant to (hopefully) help foot some of the many expenses we are about to, and already have, encountered. It is merely an experiment, to see if it works. If God wants me to do this to help with the costs, then there is no stopping Him. However, if He has something else in mind, then I am okay with knowing that I will have to pick up and move on to whatever the next 'thing' is.  I am unsure, especially this early in the game, of whether or not this is 'it,' but it has been a rough road, let me tell you. I haven't even been doing it for very long, either! It seems like all the 'friends' I had before I began seem to run for the hills when I mention the company, or doing a show. It is like they think I am perpetually trying to sell them something and can't see beyond the fact that I am a salesperson, to raise money for our adoption, no less. There is much more to me than this job, and I am just doing what I need to do so we can fulfill what God has called us to do! If people don't like what I sell (that is perfectly fine-- just don't be rude about it) then they can tastefully decline, for whatever reason, I understand. It just really hurts when people avoid me, for whatever reason!  Believe me, I would prefer to have a job where I don't have to be the dreaded salesperson, but in this economy, and I know that is part of it (no sense in being rude, though, people!), there are really no jobs to be had. So, I am doing what I can to contribute to our adoption fund by being a consultant. I am willing to try anything in order for us to be able to go to Russia and bring our son home! So, believe me, if that means selling whatever it is, I am going to be doing it! And, hopefully, something that I sell will appeal to you! :)

I really do hate being negative, and this is part of why I wrote this post. I wanted to get out all the negativity and be able to put a perspective on things-- to be able to focus on the positive things that are happening and block out the negative. There have definitely been people who have showed an interest and have supported us in our venture, and I am so grateful to those people who are willing to stick by us and support us any way they can; whether it is by prayer, verbal support/encouragement, or donations. To those people who have showed their support, I have been so moved to their outpouring of love, and I am so grateful for that! I really do feel blessed to have those people in my life; I just pray I can learn to focus on the positive, encouraging ones and be able to keep moving forward, on our path God has laid out for us.

Please keep us in your prayers, as always, but in particular this week since we are all seeming to experience a high degree of discouragement and negativity. This is not the last of our discouraging times; there will be many more! We just need to keep our eyes on the prize.....
 Thanks for your support