So I really should have been a red head. I, at times, can have a very hot temper-- I have always been easily frustrated as well. They are related-- I get frustrated and the only way I can express it is anger. In my younger years, my math book usually brought out the worst in me. Who knew I would grow up to love math? Wierd, huh? Oh well.To get back to my point, however, I never realized how angry I could get until I had a hot-tempered daughter! She is like me in many ways... easily frustrated and angered, and she lets the whole world know about it. Now, I hope that I am correct in saying that she is far worse than I am, especially given that she has ANOTHER molar coming in.... Anyway, if you add her frustration and anger to my frustration and resulting anger, you get a frustrated and angry mommy and baby, to put it simply.
There are a lot of things going on in my life right now; pretty much all of them are out of my control. So the answer? I know what it is; I just need to let go. Easier said than done. I am not a control freak in any way, but I am a little OCD with wanting to have things go smoothly and stay nice, pretty, and un-messy. So, I ordered a couple of books that will hopefully let me get things in perspective, and 'go with the flow.' I know I am not the only mom dealing with frustration with my child, and I know it won't resolve itself. That's why I am going to try and work on being more patient and reigning in my emotions. I owe it to myself, Caylen, and any future children I might have, and there is no time like the present!
It's a common denominator that MOST moms' have. Frustration. Anger. Stress. Anxiety. Oh wait? That's more than one common denominator, isn't it? Ya. There's way more, too. Sadly (very sadly) most moms do not admit to their 'holy crap I'm so FED UP-ness'. You're not alone, chick. I promise you. It gets BETTER. And then 5 minutes later it's gonna be hard. And 3 seconds after that, it's awesome all over again ;-) Stay at Home Mom's (raising their kids @ home) have the hardest profession on the planet. Period. The End.
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